The reason why Im back

Thank you :)

ARE YOU

Are You?

If you can’t solve, do not complicate
If you can’t contribute, do not participate
If you can’t soothe, do not irritate
If you can’t compliment, do not berate
If you can’t give, do not take
and
if you can’t love, do not hate.

Owh, 1 more,
if you don't deserve, don't have it.

Hasta la Vista

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The Line is DEAD

200 Pounds Beauty

Great movie (had watched it for 4 times) Great soundtracks.And yes,it's her voice,not a voice-over or lip-sync,it's hers. Her name is Kim Ah Joong and the video above is she singing Byul,one of the soundtracks in the movie,another mesmerizing songs are Maria and Beautiful Girl.Search it if you want to listen it and I bet you'll like it as soon as you heard it! Whoa,it rhymes!Haha.

Shit!

My life is ruin because of MATH

T____T

My world shattered.......

Drifted apart

Sometimes , I felt left-out when I'm mingling with friends of mine.I felt that a lot of things had changed , VERY I must say.Back then , you'll tell me everything about your daily basis or gossips , your crushes hot-goss, your exes stories , just to name a few but now, you don't even tell me anything.Hey,it doesn't mean that I want you to tell me everything but but but (see,too many 'buts' already) but right now you don't tell me anything , I repeat , ANYTHING.I could feel the existence of gap presence between us that slowly drifted us apart.Sigh...I really miss the 'friends' who used to light up the chaotic world just by that beautiful smiles and rib-tickling jokes.

*In sweetly gracious tone* I miss you

:(

Being sexy, is not confidence. But being confident itself, is sexy.

(I wondered where I've heard that before)

Hasta la Vista , Changgong

Thanks for the memories :)

2004-2009

Celebration Of Life

Hey yaww,Aina Afiqah had officially and biologically turned 14 years old yesterday (20th November 2009) Congratulations!She is the one in the black shirt and Maruko-Chan hair-styled(ugly)haha!.Even though the celebration was just outside Fila's house,with no cake,no candles,no special costumes,no food,no big crowds and more no-no's,but what matter the most was the true meaning of the birthday celebration itself.Fila and I were planning to use the flour and eggs to throw on Ena's face at first but it was vice versa cause' we ended up throwing the flour in each other's faces.

Ena sahaja yang terkena telur.Hahahaha.Padan muka Ena,saya dan Fila.Padan muka semua.Served our rights!But hey,it was a big heap of fun!

It was the celebration of life!

Confession of a school leaver & SPM-er

Can't believe high school coming to an end.

I mean, I was too looking forward to it.
Now, what a bummer. I'm missing those Oh-So-Bananas moments already. :(
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Farrrrrrrrrkkk.

(listening to One Republic - Come Home) Not helping :(

Two days of SPM is done. I swear, after yesterday, it's just like any other exam. Though, I feel like I screwed up most of papers. I like to think of it that way, so my hopes doesn't go down the drain.Here is a confession,I cried after English (1) paper,I don't know if it was the tears of happiness or vice versa.But I think I cried because I couldn't recheck my essay due to lack of time and me being stupid for doing the section B first,I should've answered section A in the first place .For that,I've left some important contents. NOT HAPPY :(

Nonetheless, a wave of relief hits my senses after English (2) , I couldn't believe I had plenty of time to recheck my answers 3 times.My summary quite satisfying too. Hoping that English (2) could cover up my mistakes that I 've done on previous essay papers. (Crossed fingers)

Still,I have 6 more papers left.Aiyoo! What a pain in the ass! Ok, gtg.Need to study!

Wish me the best of luck!
:D

A Mother's Sacrifice (Deeply touching story)

My mom only had one eye. I hated her.She was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell and anything for the money we needed.Still,she was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school.
I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom,

"Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.

Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night,I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.

Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me

"What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

And I asked her,

"Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if I tried to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared.

Thank goodness, She doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me.One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house.Just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand , it was a letter to me.

She wrote:

My son...

I think my life has been long enough now. And I won't visit Seoul anymore but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.For you ,I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.

You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye.So I gave you mine.I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around me.

I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me.

My world shattered!

Then I cried for the person who lived for me. My Mother

Blog is in Coma

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Compounds come from Kampung

When I was googling a few words just to kill my boredom,I found something that caught my eyes.

Did you know that the word "compound" actually comes from the word "kampung" from the Malay language? It is kinda weird, but the pronounciation is quite similar. A proof that even English language steals from Malay language!

True?

Here is a hard sentence

I must be alacritous and decisive to surmount any encumbrance I encounter in order to preclude affliction and quandaries.

Shit hard these words...but that's English A1 alright!

Can I interest you in a sarcastic comment?

My teacher gave me the talk :

"I know at this point in life,you think friends are the most important thing, but remember this when you're older, they will have their own family, and you will have your own. So you won't have time for each other. From now on, you should prioritize yourself before others"

I didn't like it. *thumbs down

I mean what's the point of having a life, without anyone you could talk to, listen to your ramblings and just be there for you, just because. That's some life to live without anyone there. I know you're not suppose to depend on anyone, but Allah created other human beings for various reasons right?

Then again, they are pros and cons in life, isn't there?
I guess, now is my pre-midlife crisis.
I am not happy.
I will tell you that.

Silver Lining

I think,for some reasons,being boring and lonely has its own advantages.Why say?Because,every time I landed in boring situation, I would kill my boredom by surfing the Internet and Google "Spiritual quotes,Life quotes" just to name a few.Reading motivational quotes from intellectual and famous people makes me feel at ease.It takes only few words to make it meaningful.Some words are just so true and hit my senses,literally I shall add.Some words are uplifting and some don't.I like reading both cause every positivity has its own negativity right?Hehe.So,to keep some of my favourite quotes permanent in mind,I did some mash up of them and this is the result :

What do you think?
:D

A day without laughter is a day wasted

Hahahahahaha.

Epic!

All-time fave :)

Kelly Clarkson
Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
and breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me, but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

" If I ever down and hopeless, I listen to this song and know there are better things waiting out there, and all I need to do is to go and find them.A very pleasant song for SPM's candidate like me too!huhu" <3

Is this L I F E ?

I waiting,lying idly on my bed,staring at my ceiling,watching my mum plucking her grey hair,glancing through the window,watching my neighbour passing by and lucky me if cute strays cats are there too.*Sigh..Checking my cell phone......

No missed call(s),no sms-es,NO-NO-NOTHING

*Double sigh.

Wish I can turn back time when there will always be missed call(s),new unread message(s) from my chums and etc and new comments,(just a hello will do)from my Friendster,Facebook and MySpace acc.All of this will make me feel that I am appreciated to be existed in this big world.Hehe,But all of these seems to be my PAST TENSE.Now is the PRESENT TENSE and my present tense is SOLITARY.

I can't deny the fact that I am actually a lonesome and helplessly hopeless.In front of my friends,I acting to be strong,happy and independent.But deep inside me,damn!I am just a fragile girl,very I shall add.My life is like a blank canvas.Some say the cure for loneliness is to have a B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D.Really?Nahh,boys don't fancy me no more these days,am I a lesbo?Hell no lah..It's just that I don't have the tendency yet to give my heart to a boy.I am a failure when it comes to love,maybe not matured enough to have one I guess.Haha.Never mind.Hmmm,my loneliness doesn't affect my urge to do revision,SPM is in 3weeks ya'll! Still sitting in front of my computer,google-ing stuff.But hey,I still google SOALAN SPOT SPM 09 okay,huhu,found a few,copied and pasted in notepad.Aside from that,reading spiritual & motivational quotes make me feel at ease,very I must say.


That's all I wanna talk about,not in the mood to share much.

p/s:And oooohh,Happy Deepavali to my friends,Thivyaa and Pavithra.Have a great Deepavali celebration!

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Fatin.

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