I waiting,lying idly on my bed,staring at my ceiling,watching my mum plucking her grey hair,glancing through the window,watching my neighbour passing by and lucky me if cute strays cats are there too.*Sigh..Checking my cell phone......
No missed call(s),no sms-es,NO-NO-NOTHING
*Double sigh.
Wish I can turn back time when there will always be missed call(s),new unread message(s) from my chums and etc and new comments,(just a hello will do)from my Friendster,Facebook and MySpace acc.All of this will make me feel that I am appreciated to be existed in this big world.Hehe,But all of these seems to be my PAST TENSE.Now is the PRESENT TENSE and my present tense is SOLITARY.
I can't deny the fact that I am actually a lonesome and helplessly hopeless.In front of my friends,I acting to be strong,happy and independent.But deep inside me,damn!I am just a fragile girl,very I shall add.My life is like a blank canvas.Some say the cure for loneliness is to have a B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D.Really?Nahh,boys don't fancy me no more these days,am I a lesbo?Hell no lah..It's just that I don't have the tendency yet to give my heart to a boy.I am a failure when it comes to love,maybe not matured enough to have one I guess.Haha.Never mind.Hmmm,my loneliness doesn't affect my urge to do revision,SPM is in 3weeks ya'll! Still sitting in front of my computer,google-ing stuff.But hey,I still google SOALAN SPOT SPM 09 okay,huhu,found a few,copied and pasted in notepad.Aside from that,reading spiritual & motivational quotes make me feel at ease,very I must say.
That's all I wanna talk about,not in the mood to share much.
p/s:And oooohh,Happy Deepavali to my friends,Thivyaa and Pavithra.Have a great Deepavali celebration!
Wish I can turn back time when there will always be missed call(s),new unread message(s) from my chums and etc and new comments,(just a hello will do)from my Friendster,Facebook and MySpace acc.All of this will make me feel that I am appreciated to be existed in this big world.Hehe,But all of these seems to be my PAST TENSE.Now is the PRESENT TENSE and my present tense is SOLITARY.
I can't deny the fact that I am actually a lonesome and helplessly hopeless.In front of my friends,I acting to be strong,happy and independent.But deep inside me,damn!I am just a fragile girl,very I shall add.My life is like a blank canvas.Some say the cure for loneliness is to have a B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D.Really?Nahh,boys don't fancy me no more these days,am I a lesbo?Hell no lah..It's just that I don't have the tendency yet to give my heart to a boy.I am a failure when it comes to love,maybe not matured enough to have one I guess.Haha.Never mind.Hmmm,my loneliness doesn't affect my urge to do revision,SPM is in 3weeks ya'll! Still sitting in front of my computer,google-ing stuff.But hey,I still google SOALAN SPOT SPM 09 okay,huhu,found a few,copied and pasted in notepad.Aside from that,reading spiritual & motivational quotes make me feel at ease,very I must say.
That's all I wanna talk about,not in the mood to share much.
p/s:And oooohh,Happy Deepavali to my friends,Thivyaa and Pavithra.Have a great Deepavali celebration!
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